dear myself

hi i just want to talk to myself. i lose myself again. macam jumpa jalan mati. ya Allah kuatkanlah semangat aku. i knew nobody is gonna pick me up except me. alaaa susahnyaaaa. rasa cam banyak sangat masalah. i just wanted to talk to someone. tapi why the person i wanna talk to selalu buat gaya macam tak nak cakap dengan aku. bila wassap balas lambat la, blutick la, balas sepatah sepatah la. eee geram laaa. in the end im the one will be going back and forth to hate you and coming back to you. ahh bencinyaa why i didnt have much person to talk to so i wont be so upset if one person like you ignore mee. i dont deserve thisss. i know i really dont...

there's so many incomplete work, tesis, internship, studyyy. ya Allah takde semangatnyaaaa. i know i should be takut sebab banyak benda tak siap. but im likeee a lost boy that not ready to be found. hmm sedih nyeee. sedihnyee kene hadapi benda ni sesorang. [nangis dalam hati jap]